Jan 2, 2011 23:56

its a tiring day.

gusto ko lang ilagay dito ang thoughts ko ngayon,

see? i cant seem to contain it anymore, parang sasabog na ko sa sobrang frustration, inis, disappointment and helplessness. i'm tired:(

jj and i have been together for 7 months already and yet parang di parin namin masakyan ang isa't isa, lagi nalang kami nagaaway, sabi nila, it's normal daw for couples like us na magkaroon ng di pagkakaintindihan, i already know that, ive been into numerous relationships narin naman before him, dont get me wrong, im not a playgirl ha, it just so happened na wala lang tlga.. wala.. hahaha anyway, aun nga lage kame nagaaway ang i dont think it's still normal na every day.. as in EVERYDAY nagaaway kame. it's really frustrating e, and nkakawalang gana.

kanina he told me na mas mahal nya ako noon, i was hurt syempre, di ko alam kung paano magrereact, ano ba talga ang ngyayare? ano ba ang mali? lage nalang syang galet, sinabi ko na kailangan nya habaan ang patience nya because he's got to understand na hindi lang sakanya nakasentro ang mundo ko, i know i have to be a girlfriend to him but i also have my responsibilities and duties as a daughter to my parents, from the very beginning i made it clear to him na first priority ko ang pag aaral, he said he understand, but from what's happening right now i can clearly see that he doesnt understand me at all..

mahirap, masakit, because i love him. but if keeps hurting me like this, i know i would have to let go.

i know may faults din ako, dahil di ako masyadong nakakatxt pero anong magagawa ko nasa review ako? un ang hindi nya maintindihan , tapos di lang ako makareply saglit magagalit na sya, nasaan ang pangunawa don?

pagod na pagod na ko....

Dec 22, 2010

Tonight I was browsing pictures and accounts of friends when a profile caught my attention, guess what? It was my ex’s profile, hummm okay I’ll go check a little to see if he had changed a lot.

As I was looking at his pictures, I don’t know how and why but I felt a strange feeling, it was as if my chest was going to crush, I felt nostalgic as i saw a picture of him when he was in high school, that was the time when we were still together, when I was in love with him and he was still with me.

I don’t know what to do, all I know is that I am not supposed to feel like this, I already have a boyfriend for Pete’s sake, and it’s been like what? It’s been 3 years ago since we parted, 3 years since I broke up with him, but the pain that I am feeling now is so achingly familiar, like everything happened just yesterday.

Maybe I still feel something for him, or maybe I was just regretful or sorry for what happened between us 3 years ago, see? We've been together for 3 years, and it hasn’t been easy for me to forget the guy I thought I would share the rest of my life with.

Im confused as to what to do, do you have an idea of what’s happening to me? Why am I feeling like this? I have a lot of questions in my mind, I want to find the answers, but how?